I look so horrifyingly stupid with this god damned hair cut, it looks so bad, I fucking hate the hairdresser, she didn’t fucking listen to me when I said I wanted a trim and she shaved my motherfucking head
I NEED MOTIVATION! STAT
Literally nobody cares about me, they all care about everyone else, but not me, I already expressed that I need help, I already had a thousand panic attacks in public, they are not interested in me, that’s all I ever was is a freak show and an annoyance, I hate myself and want to get shot or something. Who the fuck would care. When you die people start to love you again, all of the sudden once you’re dead that’s when you were cool/talented/good looking ect. I want to die so I might mean something even just for a week. I am tired of everyone hating me. It is my own fault everyone hates me
I’m gonna be alive for like ten more years tops and then I’m overdosing.
I am not feeling
Why do I even have this blog, nobody wanted the URL because honestly literally nobody cares, an I don’t really care, like why the fuck would anyone want to follow a blog for a stranger to endlessly talk about how shitty they feel. I am exactly like every other shitty teenager in the planet, I am shit and honestly I hate myself
Oh my god I feel really panicked and scared but another half feels okay and safe?????? WTF why the fuck am I feeling multiple unrelated emotions at once
I am physically awake but mentally so exhausted